Life Updates
It has been 6 years since an update. Technically 5, but I deleted the last 2 since they were from June 2014 saying I was going back to updating and never did. Oops? I had a nostalgic moment this morning for online journaling. I have a tumblr page, but since it is anonymous, I feel any text updates are… hollow. Somehow there’s no meaning to telling people I know only through memes and political rants how my new apartment is doing. I’ve been avoiding Facebook and Twitter out of frustration with the formats. I don’t feel connected online anymore. Not that that’s a bad thing (see my previous post about not erasing yourself online). I’m not sure if I will post further updates after today, but I feel obligated to give my old blog some attention. Here are a few bullet point updates:
- Moved to New York City with my sister
- Tried my hand at business school
- Quit business school after a year
- Got a bookkeeping certificate
- Worked as a temp intern at AMNH
- Worked online for a company that analyzes Google searches
- Quit the online job because it was intensely boring
- Tried and failed to make friends in NYC
- Moved back to Georgia
- Moved in with friends in Tucker, GA (nice place)
- Moved to an apartment in Decatur (not a nice place)
- Moved to an apartment 2 weeks ago in Atlanta/East Lake (seems okay)
- Started a job as a file clerk for a small law firm (love it!)
- Finally got my seizures under control
- Went to a lot of therapy and am on anti-depressants
- Stopped going to therapy
- Still haven’t gotten a driver’s license
- Tried and quit a dating website
- Cut my hair short and grew it back out (twice)
So far I think my life is headed in a positive trajectory. I’ve gotten back with my gaming crowd. I’m seeing friends regularly – both new and old ones in the Atlanta area. I haven’t gone back to therapy since moving back, but my neurologist has kept me on my happy pills. My new apartment is safe and quiet (and so far roach free). I’m back to party planning and there might be another infamous theme party in the works, but I need a venue. On my to-do list is getting better at budgeting, finding a new therapist, getting better at answering phone calls at work, and getting better at eating & exercising (though I’ve slowly been coming to terms with my weight issues).
I also just really need to get a cat. If and when I get one I’ll bog this blog down with pics of it. Sound fair?
I should probably get back to work now. This felt nice. Maybe we’ll do this again sometime.
Owl of the Week 6
A friend asked me to post more owl art. I’m sorry I’ve been falling down on the job. Oh sh*t. Was that another apology?
For your viewing pleasure:
Source: Gustoff Marshfield. Or this is some German tribute to him? Maybe I should rename my blog “Owls on Skulls”.
Head Trauma
About once a year or so I get an EEG. This isn’t because it is necessarily required, but my neurologists (plural now) can’t figure out what’s wrong with my brain. It’s as if they need to keep checking that my brain is screwed up. My friends have a few guesses as to why, but the doctors can’t scientifically prove any of those.
I have so many studies on record: EEGs, ambulatory day EEGs, video monitored hospital stays, MRI, MRA, MRV, and coordination tests. (They want me to walk in a straight line despite my huge thighs not making that possible.) So what’s another test? I actually get pretty excited about the EEG itself. My main anxieties arise from dealing with insurance and setting appointments. This time I had to deal with a few misunderstandings, a rescheduling, and a 30 minute stay in the waiting room because of a snafu.
The waiting room was an interesting experience. I was the only one there until these two Old White Guys (OWGs) arrived with a newspaper. One said, snidely, something about ‘that Hussein in the White House.’ Then they pointed at parts of the newspaper that made them feel OWG rage, cursing up a storm. There were several statements about the incompetence of congress, with a stop off at “why do they have 5,000 laws they can’t get through. Just make 5 or 6 and vote on them.” (This writer interprets that to mean that he wanted everything shrunk down to a one-size-fits-all type of lawmaking. You know. Like back in his day.)
There was a brief break when OWG 1 noted Shakira had a new baby and how cute it was. I think OWG 2 was thrown off by the knowledge of someone named “Shakira” being in the news. (FYI, this image is all that’s available of that baby as of right now.) They left the room after this bizarre interruption and I pondered what they were really mad at. Maybe the Hussein comment wasn’t coming from the Fox News Cult. Maybe they were moderates joking around and yelling at representatives from both sides.
OWG 1 returned. The news was on. The discussion: Hillary Clinton’s career. No discussion of current events. Only a brief mention of her problems with the terrorism misinformation. It was just her. OWG 1 stared. Lingered. Finally said, “damn bitch” and walked off.
Uh. So this was supposed to be a post about my new head wrap: Instead of normal ambulatories where they glue the electrodes on, this hospital used a type of paste. I thought that was great because the glue makes it look like you have horrid dandruff for two weeks. But how do you keep these pasted things on? A friggin’ gauze headwrap.
what the glue does to your hair (from two years ago):
(Pretty rockin’. I should try that with my pomade.)
Two days. Two days. Twwooo daaayyysss…..
Owl of the Week 5
Might as well keep the owl posts going. Those are easy and make me happy.
Via artist Oksana Badrak. Found through Just Art.
Happy New Year
Try to make it happy. Do your best. If this requires copious amounts of booze, that’s okay. I’m spending NYE with my mom, eggnog with rum, and chocolate from Russia.
We had a full day. It was full of things that required a minimal amount of movement, but made it seem like time well spent. We left at 11 so I could get a teeth cleaning. The doctor numbed my mouth because she knew it was going to be brutal. I can’t count the number of times she said “floss”. I’m sorry my bleeding gums anger you.
We headed over to the mall and I got my hair did. My bangs needed a major trim and I think the dresser managed to get them straight this time. At least my mom hasn’t threatened yet to grab scissors and “fix it”. We then saw Wreck It Ralph. It was one of the best cartoon films I’ve seen recently. There was a quick trip to Michaels. I was reminded why neither of us are let in there. Several chachkes and 2 My Little Pony activity books later we left and hit the liquor store.
So now we sit in silence until we can come up with something meaningful to do in our last hours of 2012. I’m putting up my last post of this month (and this year). I probably won’t keep up the daily routine anymore, but I’m proud that I managed to go every day (minus one) of December and realize I have the willpower to accomplish a goal. I’m going to use that momentum this upcoming year. I will do my best. If it doesn’t seem like I am, you have permission to post angry comments on my Facebook page.
Have fun to anyone venturing out to New Years’ Eve parties. I think I’m in for the night. I’m thankful that I managed to get through the day without tripping on black ice.
Sorry About That
I want to apologize for not posting yesterday. Mostly I’m apologizing to myself. I actually forgot yesterday and feel guilty. At one point I was online and thought about putting something together, but my brain went “Procrastination Mode: On”. After I went off the computer, I didn’t return and finally remembered the post after I was already in bed. ~blah blah blah no one cares and i have to shovel today~
If I am going to apologize to my audience, I have so many more things to say. Sorry if you think anything on my blog has been offensive, especially the post on Caligula. Sorry if you spotted any typos or errors, don’t worry I’ve noticed them too and will spend hours agonizing over edits. Sorry if I’ve ever hit too close to home. I’m sorry that most of my posts are not engaging and 3/4ths of my blog visits are to the Medieval Torture post and the one about poisonous mushrooms. I’m sorry I kept doing “ring” posts when I started. I liked shiny things and thought my audience would too. I’m sorry for occasionally going full LiveJournal-mode and complaining about petty things like my job situation and insurance. My mom says I apologize too much, so I’m sorry about that.
There. Now I can start the next year with all of that out. No more apologies. I’ll have to start posting things like I’m not humble or some shit.
Anyway, I am sorry thankful that people felt the need to give me well wishes after the last post. The death of a family friend is hard, but it is even harder to stack it on top of 3 or 4 other deaths of family and friends within the same year. Or if you are my sister, the 11 or 12 other deaths. Plus the tragic shit that’s gone on in 2012. I’m glad that people are here for me, but I am here for you too if there are things from this year that are hard to cope with.
As some of you may know, the above cards come from someecards.
I considered Blue Barnhouse and This Is Going To Be Awkward as other card options. These links are for your perusal this holiday season. (We’re still in the holidays, damnit! Find yourself a Valentine!”)