I am not okay. I enrolled in a website called in order to make new friends. I have been enrolled since… April? Not once have I volunteered to go out to a game session or get coffee or tag along to a museum. I am full of some shattering social phobias. Happy pills are not working.

Today I will finally meet people from one of the groups. It’s just go out for a few beers and food. It isn’t near home so I am relying on my parents to drive me and then wait for me. My main fear, though, is meeting strangers. It isn’t going to be a big group. It is all females. We’re all around the same age and looking for new friends. There is no reason for me to be anxious.

Instead of being excited I am filled with the dread of not knowing what to do. How do “normal” people behave in society? Will we share anything in common or will I have to drink the night away while ignoring the conversation? These are reasons I am seeing a therapist. She was very encouraging and told me to do that thing where you pump yourself up in a mirror.


Off I go to delve into the real world of female bonding and social faux pas. I’ll report on my findings.


About Strix Varia

Seeking the strange creatures of the Internet while staving off the boredom of being unemployed and far from old friends. Follow the blog if you need something with which to pass the time away.

Posted on November 25, 2011, in life lessons, personal issues, social anxiety and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. Well?

    … for what it’s worth, I don’t know how to date. I thought I wasn’t dating for a while, but apparently I’ve had more dates than I thought.

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